Sunday, February 21, 2010

Love is in the air

This morning, my sister called me over to watch a pair of flies mating. Unfortunately, my dog scared them away before I could grab a camera, thus spoiling my voyeuristic plight. They were allegedly still at it whilst in flight. What talent!

Tuesday, February 16, 2010

A gambling problem


I always walk in hopeful. Anticipation of excitement and success overwhelm my thoughts, blinding me from the possibility of defeat. This time, I'll hit the Jackpot, get that Royal Flush, win a Straight Up Bet. I ignore the whispers of advice, persuading me to take it easy, to take it slow. Even closed doors are no barrier -- I charge them down mercilessly.

Once inside, I am forced to face reality. There are ups, yes, but also downs. And sometimes, it just spirals downwards like a vortex of doom. But do I realise? No. Past experiences suggests that I should just leave and cut my losses. But do I learn? No. I keep telling myself I'll win it back. I keep telling myself that victory is in the next hand.

Eventually, I do leave. When everything I came with is gone, when I have nothing more to lose, I leave.

This is why I should never gamble.

Friday, February 12, 2010

He suits me, he suits me not

Over the summer, I started to realise that people can choose their potentials, and hence partners, in two main methods. Some would first sort out those who are suitable, and then pick the one he/she likes best, while others would choose the most suitable out of the ones he/she likes.

Unfortunately, and quite inconveniently, 'like' and 'suitable' often don't coincide. She might want to try him out for the yearned-for teenage puppy love relationship he can offer. He may simply be interested in her because her aspiration for the future aligns with his.

Mr. Wrong might be absolutely charming, but not someone you'd be serious with. Yet while Mr. Right checks all the boxes, it somehow just doesn't click.

I suppose the method you adopt depends on whether your rational side or your emotional side is stronger. My rationality often struggles to keep up with my emotions. I'm not too sure I like that.

Saturday, February 6, 2010

<搜神記> 容祖兒

當初膚淺 得你恩寵似升仙 天有眼
當真糊塗 未曾發覺我該俯瞰南極快沒有冰山
當初專心 等你燭光晚餐 從沒有認識蠟燭怎樣消散
當你的光環 暗過世間火柴何用困在五指山

~ 而神跡失靈才知天大地大轉得快 ~
夢幻的生涯無非拖手逛街
怪得誰 ~ 要敬拜你便沒視力靜觀世態 ~

忘掉誰是你 記住我亦有自己見地
無論你幾高 身價亦低過青花瓷器
評核我自己 只顧投資於愛情
困在你小宇宙損失對大世界的好奇

回味誰是你 往日有甚麼品味
只要敢遠飛 亦能自創我的搜神記
~ 磨練我自己 做人目光高過聚散分離 ~
就憑你 相愛大不了提升演技當做戲

從前只懂情人的感動力量 最珍貴
未洞悉小巷大街遍地華麗
昂起頭 看遍世界我也會有我的氣勢 

忘掉誰是你 記住我亦有自己見地
無論你幾高 身價亦低過青花瓷器
評核我自己 只顧投資於愛情
~ 困在你小宇宙損失對大世界的好奇 ~

回味誰是你 往日有甚麼品味
只要敢遠飛 亦能自創我的搜神記
磨練我自己 做人目光高過聚散分離
就憑你 相愛大不了提升演技當做戲

拋開你先識去審美 往後我便有自己見地
無論愛幾高 身價亦低過青花瓷器
評核我自己 只顧投資於愛情
困在你小宇宙損失看大世界的福氣

回味誰是你 往日有甚麼品味
只要敢遠飛 亦能自創我的煙花記
仇視我自己 若然目光高過聚散分離
~ 奉承你 因往日雙眼無珠不停放大你 ~
想快樂不靠神跡 才懂創世紀 

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~ Only when the miracle ended did I realise that the world was so big and eventful ~

~ In admiring you, I lost the chance to carefully view the world ~

~ Training myself to see beyond relationships and separation ~

~ Stuck in your tiny universe, I lost my curiosity for the outside world ~

~ I worshipped you because you were continually accentuated in my eyes ~

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I always have the urge to translate entire songs from Chinese into English, but I never get past the first few lines. Cantonese lyrics are too succinct for my English translations to give them justice.